My head is so full of memories and very rarely do I get to talk about them and I suppose because they are events that happened to me they don't have any great relevance to any one else but it got me thinking the other day as I was writing my profile and thinking of music I liked and then added songs that have particularly strong emotional memories for me that maybe I should write a little bit about the importance of each song and the memory connected to it. So will you indulge me and let me have my few moments of fond memories. I will start with Moody Blues " Nights in White Satin" and over the next few days write about the other songs too.
Nights in White Satin, (NWS from now on) takes me back to 1976/7, I was 15 going on 16, a fairly plain , plumpish teenager without much confidence, I wore glasses for distance, though I tried not to wear them out in the evenings, as I felt more attractive without them, but it did cause me problems as I couldn't really see people and had to guess who they were until they walked closer, this did get me into some problems at times.
Saturday Night was the Local Disco in the dingy village hall, the only music played was Heavy rock, the likes of Deep Purple, Black Sabbath etc, the hall was usually full of ugly rockers in their leathers with long greasy hair, which they would swing around when they were head banging to the music. If any of us girls asked the DJ to play some disco music, he would usually oblige but as soon as record started the Heavies would start stomping their feet loudly to get him to stop, very threatening. So after several weeks of this my friends and I learnt to Love Heavy Rock and were out there rocking away with the best of them! I started to notice a nice looking boy who would come in with some friends and sit and watch us dance, he wasn't a rocker, he looked fairly "normal" and he had the cuteist smile which i noticed a few times was directed towards me.
At the end of the evening they always played a slow song to finish up with, on this occasion it was NWS, I usually crept out at this stage because I hated being left when everyone else was smooching but as I tried to leave the hall, this boy stpped in front of me and asked me to dance. It was him, the one I'd noticed earlier, I nearly swooned as he put his arms round me and we danced slowly holding eachother tightly and then he's kissing me, it seems to go on for ever, I can't get my breath. When the record finished he let's go of me but holds my hand and asks if he can walk me home, I have to explain that I'm being picked up as i don't live here in the town, we swap names and telephone numbers and he asks if I will come to the disco next week. I agree , I'm so excited. His name is Dan, he's 17. We "go out" together for a couple of months and then he breaks my heart. I really liked him, it was so bad I felt sick all the time and couldn't eat a thing, Friends thought I had gone mad, but it was LOVE!
One Saturday about 2 months into the relationship I turned up at the disco, (most dates took place at the disco, though he did bike over and see me at home a few times and we were chaperoned by my sister who wouldn't leave us alone for a few minutes!) Dan wasn't there, his mate came in and spoke to me and told me Dan couldn't go out with me anymore. It was over, I was devastated. Eventually he came in himslef and mumbled to me some reason or other but I wasn't really listening, my heart was broken, I needed to get home.
I kept hoping in vain that he would come back to me and the awful thing was he started working inNorwich and had to come on our bus every day so I had to keep seeing him, we'd talk and after a while we became reasonably friendly but .........he ruined it by starting to go out with my best friend!!! At the same time I started to see another boy Tom, but I hated seeing Dan with Linda, and when I finished with Tom it was Dan who picked me up and took me home . Linda finished with Dan soon after as she was going to college.
I have had a brief email conversation with Dan in recent years as I found him onFriends Reunited, he is still in same old job as he was a 17 , married pretty blonde and has 2 little girls and still playes football and cricket.
So when I hear Nights in White Satin it brings it all back, the trauma of young Love!!
5 comments:
Oh gosh - wasnt it a trauma, all those hormones and angst. Phew. I only seem to hear that tune at weddings, when they are signing the register. It must mean a lot to a lot. Lovely blog as always . I had only just realized the Norfolk connection ands we seem to like the same books. Hope you are still doing OK. love mousie
I love that record too. What a bittersweet story, there truly is nothing like first love. I think we're all old enough on here to remember discos in the village hall and the awful feeling of not having anyone to dance with when the slow numbers came on!
Oh the heartache of it all. Speaking of which - Bonnie Tyler. My friend and I LOVE Total Eclipse of the Heart and girlie days out are accompanied by Bonnie and us singing at the top of our voices!xx
Yes, just a whiff of those records from our youth can transport us right back there in a heartbeat, with all the same emotions, anxieties and insecurities. There are some records I just can't listen to for that very reason.
Hope all's well with you. My sister has just had a lumpectomy and we're waiting to hear - fingers crossed all will be well...
Remember that song well, have not heard it for a long while now.
Ah young love, and memories, sometimes bitter-sweet. So pleased you are doing well Muddie, can you ring your daughter for chats?
Thank you for asking after me dear Muddie,have left a message on my page.
Camilla.xxx
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